Rockstar Diaries.

The Rockstar Diaries is my favorite blog to read. Easily.

So, I'm going to pretend to be her for a moment, if that's quite all right with you....

Here are some "polaroids" I took when I went to New York a few years ago.

I want to go back.

song of the day.

Marching Bands of Manhattan

Death Cab For Cutie

If I could open my arms

And span the length of the isle of Manhattan,

I'd bring it to where you are

Making a lake of the East River and Hudson

If I could open my mouth

Wide enough for a marching band to march out

They would make your name sing

And bend through alleys and bounce off all the buildings.

I wish we could open our eyes

To see in all directions at the same time

Oh what a beautiful view

If you were never aware of what was around you

And it is true what you said

That I live like a hermit in my own head

But when the sun shines again

I'll pull the curtains and blinds to let the light in.

Sorrow drips into your heart through a pinhole

Just like a faucet that leaks and there is comfort in the sound

But while you debate half empty or half full

It slowly rises, your love is gonna drown

Your love is gonna drown

Your love is gonna...

i think they're good.

I'm Harry Potter, Harry Harry Potter...

I saw Harry Potter again yesterday.

It's brilliant.I would marry Ronald in a heartbeat.

And...

they chose a good Cormac McLaggen, I must say.

Oh, come and stir my cauldron,
And if you do it right
I'll boil you up some hot, strong love
To keep you warm tonight.
-Celestina Warbeck

Yes.

Let's take a break for fall.

Yes, let's.

I'm almost out of straws today.

Congratulations, October 6th. You win the bad day award!

I didn't sleep very well. I dreamed about Taylor Swift and Mr. Van Dijk.

I had no cute clothes this morning. My room is full of clothes, but I couldn't find anything cute. I wish my closet looked like this:

Today marked the beginning of "static-hair season." {boo}. This is the time when I really want to chop my hair and/or wear it up everyday.

This is paired with "dry hands season." My hands feel like paper.

I left to go to school. But I couldn't see out my windshield, due to the thick layer of frost. I forgot to factor that in this morning. So, I sat out in the freezing car with the defrost on and the windshield wipers going for about 5 minutes. I was late for seminary.

I was also tardy to orchestra; and hey, let's forget our binder full of music too! Ok, done.

Sometimes there are certain people that are incredibly obnoxious. I'm usually quite good at tolerating them, but today I felt quite irritable.

I got absolutely nothing done in B2 and B3. True, it was nice to have a couple relaxation periods, but 3 hours in Russ Mayo's classroom kind of wears and tears on your sanity.

Lunch was kind of boring today.

Math is hard. I just tried to upload a picture of my 6 page assignment, but blogger said "the file is corrupt." I have to agree with that statement.

I have to do test corrections, but not just any test corrections. Test corrections ON my test corrections. Which means I've done these math problems 3 times. You can feel bad for me.

I have yet to begin my online financial literacy course.

I am procrastinating my long biology assignment and my essay as we speak.

I have to do a radio show against my will today. You're welcome, Jamal and Trent, for filling in.

I have to wear a dress to listen to a speaker at mutual tonight. Lame.


I got a severe craving to go to Las Vegas today. I know that's really random. I like Las Vegas, and we go there quite often.

I just need a long break. Or a long nap.

At least there are a few good things going on:

Pam and Jim are getting married on Thursday at 8 o'clock on NBC.
I get to go golfing on Thursday too.
I get to go to seminary everyday, even if it is early.
My mom made pumpkin cookies.
Hey, maybe I will wear an ugly sweater tomorrow. Yesss. Cozy.
If I don't have any requests, I can play whatever songs I want on the radio today.
It is Kimberly's (the pink ranger) birthday today.

Good attitude, good attitude, good attitude, good attitude, good attitude. Maybe if I say it enough, it'll happen.

Wake me up when September ends...

Today, I met a kid from Australia.

He greeted me with a nice friendly " 'ellou!"

Just as I hoped every Australian would.

He was very nice,

And his accent rocked hard core.

I was followed

By a boy with a video camera

From my first period class to my second period class.

I think he wanted me to feel awkward;

I don't think he expected me to dance for him.

I watched a few movie trailers today.

I cannot wait for Sherlock Holmes to come out.

Robert Downey, Jr. and Jude Law.

They will be fantastic.

500 Days of Summer looks good, too.

By Jessie

Song of the Day

I highly recommend "Hey, Soul Sister" by Train. It has given my life meaning today. Not really, but it's awesome. Listen to it without smiling, I dare you. By Jessica

Dreams.

Dear Coraline,

Please get out of my dreams. I'm growing weary of you.

*****

Dear Nick,

You are welcome in my dreams anytime. I hope to see you again soon.

By Jessica

I'm feeling lovesick, but I don't mind.

Here are my favorite Jonas lyrics. [I love pratically anything that comes out of their mouths, but these are just the favorites]

• If it's you for me forever, if it's you and me right now, that'd be alright.
• Your the one I think about, it's everyday, it's everynight.
• I can't get your smile out of my mind (can't get you out of my mind), I think about your eyes all the time. Beautiful but you don't even try. Modesty is just so hard to find.
• The black keys never looked so beautiful, and a perfect rainbow never seemed so dull.
• When the sun forgets to shine, I'll be there to hold you through the night.
• It's not like I don't wanna commit. I just don't know why I can't stop feeling like this.
• Cuse an empty room can be so loud, there's too many tears to drown them out. So hold on. Hold on. When you love someone and they break your heart, don't give up on love. Have faith, restart.
• I find my paradise, when you look me in the eyes.
• Everyone knows it's meant to be. Falling in love just you and me, till the end of time, till I'm on her mind, it will happen. I've been making lots of plans; like a picket fence and a rose garden.
• You. I want to fight with you. Make up tonight with you. Your much better.
• With every strike of lightening, comes a memory that lasts.
• I'm flooded with all this pain; knowing that I'll never hold you like I did before the storm.
• Maybe you were just afraid, knowing you were miles away, from the place where you needed to be. And that's right here with me.
• When you look me in the eyes, and tell me that you love me. Everything's alright, when you're right here by my side.
• A little bit longer, and I'll be fine.
• The world is spinning round, and there's no sign of slowing down. So won't you take a breath. Just take a breath.
• You don't know what you've got till it's gone. And you don't know what it's like to feel so low.
• I don't wanna fall asleep, cuse I don't know if i'll get up. And I don't want to cause scene, but I'm dying without your love. I'm beggin to hear your voice, tell me you love me too. Cuse I'd rather just be alone, if I know that I can't have you.
• Your the remedy I'm searching hard to find, to fix the puzzle that I see inside. Painting all my dreams the color of your smile. When I find you, it will be alright.
• I break out and I start to shake, when I hear your name I can't walk away.
• Music's in my soul. I can hear it every day, every night, it's the one thing on my mind. Music's got control, and I'm never letting go. No, no, I just want to play my music.
• It's like a fog that blurs the sane. It's like a vine you can't untangle. I'm freaking out.
• I fell in love with the pizza girl, now I eat pizza every day.
• Been feeling lost, can't find the words to say. Spending all my time stuck in yesterday. Where you are is where I want to be. Oh, next to you, and you next to me.
• Dream of the day when the songs that you play are blasting through the speakers of your car.
• I've been to the year 3000. Not much has changed but they lived underwater. And your great great great grandaughter is doing fine.
• So turn right into my arms. Turn right, you won't be alone.
• Sometimes you find it's better black and white.
• Listen girl, you gotta be good. I don't want to hurt you, I want to kiss you!! Come over here.
• Get a rep for breaking hearts. Now I'm done with superstars and all the tears on her guitar. I'm not bitter.
• The future's out of focus when you're blinded by the light.
• You, you're like driving on a Sunday. You, you're like taking off on Monday.

Okay, so I know that some of these may sound cliche or lame, but so what? They make me happy, and THAT is all that matters.

By Nicole

Something Vague.

Now and again it seems worse than it is,
but mostly the view is accurate.
You see your breath in the air as you climb up the stairs
to that coffin you call your apartment.
And you sink in your chair,
brush the snow from your hair
and drink the cold away.
And you are not really sure what you're doing this for
but you need something to fill up the days.
A few more hours.
There's a dream in my brain that just won’t go away.
It's been stuck there since it came a few nights ago.
And I’m standing on a bridge in the town where I lived
as a kid with my mom and my brothers.
And then the bridge disappears
and I’m standing on air,
with nothing holding me.
And I hang like a star,
freakin glow in the dark,
for all those starving eyes to see,
like the ones we’ve wished on.
Now I’m confused.
Is this death really you?
Do these dreams have any meaning?
No. No, I think it is more like a ghost
that has been following us both.
Something vague that we're not seeing,
something more like a feeling.

The first line of this song is what hits me the hardest.
Now and again, it seems worse than it is

1. Diabetes
2. The sibling situation
3. School
4. Friends

But mostly, the view is accurate.
Quite accurate.
By Nicole

I Love KPGR.

We are having a cereal party in radio 2 tomorrow. I'm bringing the spoons. Yeeeah.
That is a fun class. The best part is easily radio shows. I've said this before, but it's like big kid toys. I love it.
One of the best things about the whole radio/video atmosphere is how funny the people are. I am constantly on the verge of wetting myself in my B2 and B3 classes. For example, yesterday in radio, Russ was talking to the class and then a kid's cell phone rang. It got quiet and everyone looked at him disapprovingly (kind of as a joke, because Russ doesn't mind things like that). But then Ryan yelled, "Send him to the gallows!" I don't remember the last time I laughed that hard.
I love radio.
By Jessie.

Happy Birthday, Draco.

I just wanted to send a birthday shout out to one of my favorite Slytherins, Draco Malfoy.

Have a good one!

Love, Jessie

"It was a weird day; I accidentally crossdressed."

I didn't actually crossdress. But it was kind of an weird day.
1. I woke up shaking from a nightmare I had about Coraline. I dream about Coraline all the time. I really liked that movie in a weird way, but I keep having nightmares about it. I want to read the book, but I'm afraid if I read it I will never sleep again.
2. I was 15 minutes late to first period because I was playing chess in the library. Chess in the library is on the list of things I have to do at PG before I graduate. Along with riding a rolly chair down that really steep hall. I played against Brock, who is a rather cool guy. I won, by the way.
3. I researched celebrity birthdays all during 2nd period. The radio room was 170 degrees fahrenheit, literally, so we were in a computer lab researching interesting facts to talk about on our radio show. There aren't too many cool celebrities with my same birthday. Martin Luther King, Jr. That's it.
4. A kid owed me a bag of Doritos, so I got a free bag of chips. I'm addicted to chips.
5. I have a huge heat blister on my thumb. Hot glue gun. It keeps oozing toxic juices.
6. I got a flu shot. I really like them in a weird way.
7. Me and Ryan had a funny radio show. Radio shows are like the highlight of my week. You get to wear big headphones and listen to music for an hour and half. It's like big kid toys. I like it.
8. Me and Ryan bought a box of Captain Crunch. It was for a contest winner on our radio show. Then Ryan's car was out of gas and we couldn't get the gas cap to pop open. It was an ordeal.
9. We grilled burgers for dinner and roasted marshmallows. Last official day of summer. We wanted to go out with a bang.
10. Kaity got stung by two bees. I have never heard anyone scream like that. Ever. I've been stung about 8 times in my life, so I know how she felt.
11. I hardly did any homework. hehehe.
12. My wireless mouse just ran out of batteries. What? That was really weird. I've never heard of that happening.
By Jessica

In a sweater poorly knit

In a sweater poorly knit, and an unsuspecting smile
Little Moses drifts downstream in the Nile
A fumbling reply -- an awkward, rigid laugh
I'm carried helpless by my floating basket raft
Your flavor in my mind swings back and forth
Between sweeter than any wine, and bitter as mustard greens
And it's light and dark as honeydew and pumpernickel bread
The trap I set for you seems to have caught my leg instead
As you plow some other field and try and forget my name,
See what harvest yields, and, supposing I'd do the same
I planted rows of peas, but by the first week of July --
They should have come up to my knees but they were maybe ankle high
Take the fingers from your flute to weave your colored yarns,
And boil down your fruit to preserves in mason jars
But now books are overdue and the goats are underfed...
The trap I set for you seems to have caught my leg instead
You're a door-without-a-key, a field-without-a-fence
You made a holy fool of me, and I've thanked you ever since
If she comes circling back, we'll end where we'd begun
Like two pennies on the train track the train crushed into one
Or if I'm a crown without a king, if I'm a broken, open seed
If I come without a thing, I come with all I need
No boat out in the blue, no place to rest your head
The trap I set for you seems to have caught my leg instead
I do not exist
only YOU exist

I like these lyrics a lot. They hit a weird spot.
By Nicole