30 rock ended and my mindgrapes can't take it so this is how i cry now

30 rock. brilliance. and a joke factory. and made me feel so much.
thank you an infinity amount, tina and co.

i just love television so much.

boooks

read these this week:

and only two of them were required for school!

guess which ones. probably not the ones you'd suspect.

reading books for fun. nothing like it.

the januaries

i've been a bit out of sorts.

it's easy to be overwhelmed.

i'm not overwhelmed with school or work or all my projects, per se. that's keeping me busy, but just the right amount of busy.

but, you know, i get overwhelmed about other things.

there are so many books. and i don't have time to read them all. there are so many movies and shows on my "to be watched" queue that i just can't quite get to. i want to practice my writing and screenwriting, but i'm supposed to write papers right now. i probably won't ever make a great film, because olmi made il posto and welles made citizen kane when they were in their 20s. i want to make cool stories and pictures that go with them, but i won't ever make anything as good as calvin and hobbes. and when jennifer lawrence is sick she wins screen actors' guild awards, and when i'm sick i fall asleep in class.

it's easy to think that where you are isn't where you should be,
whether that's geographically or mentally/spiritually.

i'm calling this feeling "the januaries,"

and i don't want it to become "the februaries" too.

so right now i'm remembering:

comparison is the thief of joy.
i'm doing my best.
i'm being kind to people.
i love what i study at school.
and i'm actually an ok person.

bye, january.

gary oldman narrates:

the man with a turnip for a head.

beautiful in all the ways.

sleepytime notes

these are my notes today. i wrote it all in my sleep. can you tell?

i can only imagine how hilarious i looked as i tried so hard to stay awake.

the kid next to me must think i'm a FOOL. i sort of hope he filmed me.

curse you, museum of art lighting. staying conscious is no easy task.

i'm hot and cold, hungry and full, human and dancer.

on days when you have a nasty cold:

skip work and all your classes,
build a blanket fort over your bed,
drink hot apple cider,
and watch 10 episodes of mad men.

that's what i would have done today.
unfortunately, i couldn't afford to take a break today.

but some things that helped with the sickies:

eating my mom's homemade pizza rolls,
listening to this song 100 times,
watching ben affleck do accents,
and getting my homework done early so i can jump in bed at 10:30.

good night, all. don't catch my cold.

sundance

i did see some celebz.

jane lynch

mia wasikowska

the cast of hell baby

kathryn hahn

martin starr 

nicole kidman 

josh radnor

utah is beautiful.

i don't mean to keep talking about cats but....

happy caturday!

and happy long weekend!

i'll be editing a little documentary, writing papers, and hopefully seeing some celebz.

run-on sentences ensue

jack actually acknowledged my presence when i went home today which is good because that is getting rarer the longer i live away from home.

last night i was washing my face and i hit my head on the faucet but don't worry i'll be ok and i also listened to sam's town last night and i cried a little bit because it's really pretty.

i also heard this song called nicaragua and then i thought about nicaragua and the boy that is there and i got sad a little because he is in the jungle and mail is really slow but then i got happy again because he is the best.

i accidentally left a can of diet coke in the car and this morning it was totally frozen and i still tried to drink it and frozen coke chunks don't taste that great and right after that i dropped a handful of quarters and they all landed heads up so i think i'm a wizard.

i imagined a lion with feathers for a mane.

this is 20, pt 2

when i got back to the white house last night, 

my roommates had this awesome scavenger hunt waiting for me. 

they got me ice cream, donuts, and cookies n cream milk 

(because that is obviously the way to my heart),

then the scavenger hunt ended with the grand finale.

this is what i see on the ceiling above my bed now:

and the captions might be the best part. 

they're all so great, but some of my favorites:

john says: "i'm gonna be real blunt here, jess. i'd dump that british chick in a heartbeat for you."

ryan says: "hey girl. you know all those memes were for you."

brandon says: "let me be your slick chrome american prince."

coach taylor says: "you clear my eyes and fill my heart."

rdj says: "you are my arc reactor."

happy birthday to me. thank you, roomiezzzz.

this is 20.

today is my birthday. and it was a rad birthday. i already love being 20!

bye bye 19.

it's my best pouty teenager face.

and i'm getting so old, this picture is in black and white!

today is my last day ever as a teenager.

looking back, i realize that i did ZERO rebellious things during my teenage years.

i'm making up for it all today by being as teenager-y as possible...

so, excuse me while i don't clean my room and listen to the jonas brothers and one direction.

golden globes

you all probably could have guessed i'm cray cray cray about awards shows.

happy about it all right now.

also, i'm cray cray cray about these couples.

my 'gif't to you on this saturday eve

how long has this been around without my knowledge!?

just an elephant

happy weeeeeekend.

i'm due for a nail re-paint, no?

school is my boyfriend.

i bought this little beauty today, and i got some kind of mysterious discount. i high-fived myself.

this semester:

15 credits

working 20 hours a week

editing side project for my professor

art director on capstone film

youtube sketch comedy group

assistant director for a project

assistant editor for a project

someone get me a time-turner.

sadly, i had to drop one class (i was at 18 credits) to retain my physical and mental health. 

and dropping that one cool class is breaking my heart. no one normal should like school this much. 

now i know how hermione must have felt when dumbledore canceled all their final exams.

because parks is my best friend

i buy myself one of these every so often as a reward. 

a reward for what? i don't know. i just needed one today.

sometimes you just need to treat yo self.

fine leather goooods.

first day of skool

and ALL of my syllabi were printed on green paper. what could this mean?

once there was a hushpuppy

i watched a lot of things this break,
but only shortened my "to be watched" queue by a tiny bit.
all in good time, i guess.

i won't blog about all the good things,
but one of my favorite things i watched this break has to be beasts of the southern wild. it's a really affecting story, and it's BEAUTIFUL.

and quvenzhane wallis is going to be so cute at the academy awards when she's accepting that oscar!

it's picatso

today: i have to go to work.

and later i *get* to transcode hours and hours of video for an editing project.

and buy more textbooks.

welcome back to real life everybody!

[i wish cats looked like that in real life.

i think there's a picatso children's book in the making...]

bf is still my bf

after a lot of consideration, i think i have settled on my favorite killers song.

it's subject to change from day to day, but read my mind is consistently near the top of the list.

that part at 3:00 - 3:20.... if my heart stopped and i was about to die, 

they could play that part of the song and it would revive me.

flag

santa brought me a mini flag for christmas. 

guess which country.

happy new year!