antarctica = college

i'm sure it'll get better. hopefully.

and there are good parts. like an awesome film teacher who shows snl clips.

i'm just the classic clueless freshman right now.

ma ma ma. ma ma ma ma ma.

today is weird.

i don't feel like myself.

and i go to work all day every day.

and it's already june 20th.

i don't know what i want to be when i grow up either.

people keep asking me what my major is.

and i say "probably film."

but what i mean is "hhhhh i have no idea. leave me be."

i'm not good at being a grown-up.

not good at all.

i am good at eating with chopsticks though.

so at least i have that going for me.

hey remember when i used to do radio shows?

i remember.

i was the president of radio too.

so long ago... ha.

and remember when my cheeks were a normal size and not bruised?

i remember.

those were the days...

chubby cheeks are cuter on babies

I may or may not have had a dream last night that I was eating Five Guys.

Gah.

Is this going to be forever?

the worst, really

i say a lot of things are "the worst."

for example

"calculus was the worst."

"waking up when it's still dark outside is the worst."

"rose's fiance on titanic is the worst."

but guess what. getting your wisdom teeth out really is THE WORST.

especially if you can't take your pain medication because you just throw it up.

and especially if your face gets swollen.

and especially if you feel like you're going to starve to death.

hhhh.

the worst.

oh well.

i have lots of nice friends who are checking up on me. thanks guys.

and i have a laptop for watching movies and alias season 4.

and it's johnny depp's birthday.

please bless that i feel better tomorrow.

boo.

and a cheesy analogy

i'm stressed out. it's true.

march/april/may is always the busy time of year for me.

this year it seems especially crazy.

so much to do all at the same time.

i feel like i'm riding a roller coaster. but i don't have the safety restraint on.

and while i'm focusing on not falling off the ride,

my shoes are coming off and things are falling out of my pockets.

but i like that picture of balloons.

it alleviated some stress for a minute or two.

spring break in one week. one week.

via via

reasons why i need a job

because i need to buy a laptop.

because i like eating at restaurants.

because i want to study abroad in a few years.

because i reeeeally want to buy a t2i.

and because i am going to college. in like 5 months.

wishing i had a vault full of galleons at gringotts right now.

why does school even matter

"what a beautiful lawn"

Remember the "Meek for a Week" episode of Arthur?

It's the one where Francine has to be nice.

Brain compares her to that bottle of orange soda.

He thinks if she goes too long, her head is going to pop off.

That's how I feel.

I'm not trying to be meek for a week.

But, I have so much stuff going on.

I feel like all this ish is building inside me.

I'm afraid I'm going to blow up.

You can watch the Arthur clip here.